Tender Mercy Tuesday

I could never have enough gratitude in my heart or actions for everything I've been blessed with. There's just no way because I've been given SO many things.... it's overwhelming. 

I do know that I'm being watched over. This past weekend, I got in a crazy sledding accident (I know, it sounds lame... but it was serious) in which I flew off of a jump and got some big air only to land directly on my face and the roll the rest of the way down. My face was cut up as well as bruised and swollen within minutes. I was embarrassed and angry. It happened in front of a lot of people and I had a dance that night at school. Now that I've had time to process it and accept the look I'll be rocking for a couple weeks, I realize how incredibly lucky I am to have such little damage. Granted, the right half of my face is completely swollen and cut up while I also have whiplash and my back is out of alignment and a couple ribs out of alignment... but it could have been worse. I could have broken my nose, broken my neck and been paralyzed, lost teeth, hurt my eye/lost vision, broken my cheek bone or a variety of other things. (I'm doing much better now)

I wish it didn't take big trials like this for me to realize that I'm always being watched over. I'm super grateful for my awesome best friends who helped me right away and made sure I was going to be okay as well as my mother who has been checking on me and helping me like no other human being could. I guess I just wanted to say how happy I am that I'm watched over and have amazing people to help me.

Watch for the little moments that you are grateful for... They'll mean a lot more to you in the long run and help us realize our blessings. Have an awesome week, my lovelies!

xoxo

kylee jean

Lacking inspiration

I feel like I've been lacking any sort of creativity lately. I don't feel inclined to design beautiful, complex stories or feelings in my head. I don't know why but it's making me sad. It's not that I'm depressed, because I'm far from. I guess there aren't many fantastic things happening everyday. 

Scratch that.

Everyday is beautiful. I smile. I laugh. I enjoy myself. I am surrounded by beautiful people. I wake up every morning, wanting to go back to bed but then I realize that I'd rather be awake to experience every moment I can. Life moves too fast to sleep it away (... no matter how tired we are) or waste time. I guess when everyday seems to be fabulous, I don't notice the crappy stuff so much. Life is easier when I'm happy... isn't that convenient? ha ha.... It's like that cliche saying "It only takes 17 muscles to smile and 43 muscles to frown." It's so true! We might not notice it, but it's seriously less work to be happy! The small trials don't even phase me. I'm trying to be more patient. I'm trying to accept and love others because that's how I want to be treated. I believe that everything happens for a reason. There's no such thing as luck or fate. I also believe in karma. What goes around comes around.. so make sure you're sending a smile and kinds words around... it's a pleasant surprise when it comes smiling back to you.

That was definitely mind vomit. I haven't been posting much lately or even writing in my journal. I just wanted to get some of that craziness out. So, it turns out, the small things that often irritated me easily seem to be disappearing. (Don't get me wrong, I'm still really irritable and need to work on A LOT... but everyday is another step to becoming better. As long as I'm better than I was yesterday, there's not much else to worry about.)

Food for thought: "I'm sick of all the day to day crap, but I know in the end, it's all of that crap that will make life worth it." (from my beautiful, thoughtful BFF Abbi Liddell)

Also, to anyone that's reading this, I want to tell you some things. And I hope you never forget them. 

You are beautiful. You are important. Things will happen when they are supposed to; don't rush life. You will get what you deserve, even if you feel unlucky at moments. Don't worry about the "haters." They are only jealous. Stay strong; don't give up. Never, ever, ever quit fighting. Don't let stupid things get under your skin. Don't die hesitating; act now, get what you want. Now. Now is the time. 

*Happy Birthday to this inspirational man*

Stay beautiful, my lovelies. 

xoxo

kylee jean