just in that mood.

hand kisses. cheek kisses. nose kisses. forehead kisses. neck kisses. shoulder kisses. collarbone kisses. back kisses. stomach kisses. hipbone kisses. sad kisses. happy kisses. sweet kisses. angry kisses. good morning kisses. good night kisses. i miss you kisses. i love you kisses. i want you kisses. i need you kisses. rain kisses. beach kisses. sunset kisses. sunrise kisses. party kisses. cuddle kisses. first kisses. second kisses. hundredth kisses. car kisses. summer kisses. snowy kisses. hot kisses. cold kisses. playful kisses. public kisses. private kisses. jealous kisses. keep me kisses. for now kisses. forever kisses. lazy kisses. empty kisses. nervous kisses. quick kisses. long kisses. french kisses. kisses in the light. kisses in the dark. kisses that touch your lips. kisses that touch your heart. kisses. kisses. kisses. <3

so... yep. 

xoxo

kylee jean

a girl i used to know

there's a girl that i met, once. she was a mere twelve years young. she was beautiful but seemed lost in a world that only wanted to bring her down. she didn't know what it felt like to know that she was beautiful and talented. she didn't know that she could do anything she ever wanted to. she thought the impossible was the impossible. it's not that she was negative, it's just that she couldn't see her potential.

i'm going to tell you about this girl and how she finally found herself. 

she didn't ever have it all, but she had enough. she was likable, kind, talented, humble, silly and reserved. it sounds about right for a twelve year old. she didn't stand out in a crowd, but she wasn't like anyone else. are you catching my drift?

on the outside, everything was right. she smiled and laughed and was generally happy. time passed and she got older.

we became friends.

i got to know her and underneath the smiles and laughs, she wasn't what i thought. she hardly thought of herself as fantastic, lovely, beautiful, happy, "cool", or talented (which she was, i can assure you). i couldn't understand why she didn't see what i did. since i saw her, i knew she had potential and i admired her ability to work hard and always be kind to everyone. literally, everyone. i was envious of her. i still am.

it's not like she became a project, she just became someone that i knew i'd want in my life, well, forever. a sister-like person. my best friend. we worked on each others weaknesses without even realizing it. we built each other up and made each other realize that we are physically able to do anything we have ever wanted if we just do it.

today, she's different than anything i'd ever imagined. she's even more beautiful, turned out to be a pretty talented little dancer, and one of the most genuine, lovely individuals you'll ever meet.

sadly, sometimes she forgets everything she can be and loses her confidence. people always ask me why she's afraid to talk to them. i say... i have no idea. they tell me she's beautiful and different from anyone she's ever met. they also tell me she's a little crazy. but like alice said, all the best people are.

i guess what i've learned from her is that you should never underestimate yourself and don't ever worry about what people say to you. if they like you, then that's perfect! and if they don't, it's their loss. don't try so hard to be someone else.

thank heavens for best friends. 

xoxo

kylee jean

Sensitive Sunday

I've had quite a couple thoughts come to mind today. Most of them have nothing to do with each other, but I think they're lovely enough to share!

•if my friends think they don't do anything for me, I guarantee they have. I'm not a very giving person, although I try. I think when you find people that you're comfortable with and don't feel vulnerable in front of, it makes you feel safe and loved. That's how I feel about my closest friends. I know they love me just because I'm Kylee Terry. They know I make mistakes and that I'm not perfect. They know I struggle and that I have my off-days but they've never given up on me. I owe it to them to do the same.

•I have a quote fetish. "If it scares you, it might be a good thing to try." -Joshua Godin
I hate that human beings are so vulnerable and worry and can get scared. I don't want to be those things, ya know? I want to throw myself head first at life, maybe being scared, but knowing I can do it. Life isn't something I want to be scared of. And I sure as heck don't want to be scared of people. Nobody is better than me. We're all just people... So I want to promise myself that I'm not going to be scared to take advantage of opportunities to be adventurous, say what's on my mind, talk to someone I don't know (or desire to talk to), or anything life can throw at me.

•the time to prepare is now. I'm not very good at this idea but we NEVER know what's coming next. We have to be ready to be ready for what life is going to give us, more likely what God is going to give us. We aren't guaranteed tomorrow, so live today like it's your last.

•I love exciting weeks. Even more, I love exciting weekends. It wasn't a crazy exciting weekend. It just had some lovely things in it. I love kissing and I love adventures. I'm seventeen. That's okay, right?

•I aspire to be a fashion blogger someday. Or maybe for people to think I have a cool fashion sense and they praise me for it? I won best-dressed sophomore girl, once. It was quite the accomplishment to me.

•Lastly, I think I'd like to be a writer someday. I love to use big words and express my feelings and writing is the easiest way to do that for me. Don't get me wrong, I love talking. I hardly ever stop! But I could write forever if my hand would let me. Unfortunately, few people know that i love to write, especially poetry. Maybe someday, I'll post some stuff I've written.

xoxo 

kylee jean

10 things

It's monday, how lovely (can you taste the sarcasm?). It's been quite the day, so here's 10 things that i didn't enjoy on this 3rd day of december:

1) stuff letters for an hour and a half. i will never throw away another letter from bingham. i hope seniors will take advantage of the personalization and senior salutes for the yearbook. 

2) fall asleep in film studies... oops.

3) wake up from my nap in film studies thinking it's friday.... it's only monday. :'(

4) take my friends to lunch at my house and have them eat all my favorite bread. >:(

5) have the worst english teacher of all time. her voice is like nails on chalk board and she literally screeches when she yells. please, shut up, ms. P....

6) have the spawn of satan english teacher assign an essay today with a draft due on friday on top of a vocab test. thank you ms. P, you're so kind.

7) go out to my car after school only to find out it smells like dirty diapers. seriously? how does that happen...? 

8) have a melt down about how frequent and almost unbearable my back pain is. every. single. day. i wake up with back pain. whyyyyyyy....? 

9) drop my phone and crack my cute giraffe case. :(

10) and, something i could have prevented, eating 2 tacos and chips before i go to dance. i can feel the stomach ache coming on and i haven't even gone yet. 

even though these aren't the best of things to happen on a monday, it was actually a pretty decent day. so, here are 10 lovely things that happened today:

1) i didn't wake up late this morning... heck yah. 

2) i got a front parking spot.

3) my mom made me breakfast. 

4) i have some of the best friends that i'm with constantly through my day.

5) i had an excellent grilled cheese at lunch, yummo.

6) i cleaned my dirty diaper smelling car and it now smells like 'linen and fresh laundry" or something febreze...

7) i had a great work out at CF

8) my mom made homemade dinner tonight, woooo!

9) i don't have any homework... crap. scratch that. should have finished my physics lab. o__O

real 9) there was a beautiful sunrise this morning. what a lovely thing to see as i drive to school!

10) i have some pretty darling male acquaintances in my life. hello boys, let me help you with _________ (insert task).

so even though we have bad things in our days, i think it's important to realize that we always have good things too. two of my newest favorite quotes are, "it's up to you to find the beauty in the ugliest days," and "every day might not be good, but there is something good in every day." there's only truth to those two statements! it's up to us to be happy and see all the beautiful things we're blessed with. (:

xoxo

kylee jean

fridaayyyy

there's nothing better than getting to sleep in (thank-you, late start) and then having a great day at school. ttheeeennn... coming home and hanging out with your bff for a bit. taking a quick power nap, going to the basketball game to take pictures, beating west jordan so bad they probably went home and cried, getting food with all the coolest cats around town and then wrestling boys for the rest of the night. seriously, what a hoot. i probably burned 200 calories just from laughing! 

at first, it was just an alright day. then, it got pretty crappy because this mean boy gave me a dirty look and unfortunately, i let it get to me and it just chapped my khakis. not to fret my dears, i quickly got over it and decided i have a major crush on #30. he probably doesn't know that i exist-well, he didn't. my good friend drake went ahead and asked him about me and whatnot and in the end, he said that he would be down to go on a double date! WAHOO!! i did the happy dance for a decent amount of time after that. that was the highlight of my day. please #30, just acknowledge my existence. (pleading hands)

to finish off the night, it was fiesta friday at the basketball game. hasta mañana, amigos. buenas noches.

Why.

I just don't understand why people are so mean...

Like, really. Please give me another dirty look. What did I ever do to you? I don't mean to rage and this is kind of an oxymoron because I'm being mean about people being mean. But really, why can't we all just get along and say and do nice things. I think that would be lovely.

at the end of the day...

life is...

sometimes i don't realize

i tried to come up with something catchy or creative to start this, but i'm just going to be real. i am SO lucky and blessed to have the family and friends that i do. i take them for granted every day and often times forget to thank them for the love that they show me. i truly love the family that the Lord has blessed me with. they are crazy and uncontrollable but some of the greatest people you will ever meet. i've recently been reminded that not every one is so fortunate to have a whole family. 

my dad is the coolest, funniest, strongest man in the world. please don't try to argue me on that. i can't even describe how unbelievably fantastic he is. i would die without this guy in my life!

my mother is my very best friend. she is also one of the funniest and strongest ladies i know. what i would do without her amazing example of motherhood and a hard worker is a question i'd rather not answer.

davidson is also one of my very closest friends. i constantly find myself with a sore stomach and cheeks from laughing so hard when we hang out (if he's in a good mood, of course.) anyone would be lucky to know him and be his friend.

wesley is someone that i look up to greatly. he is the wittiest twelve-year-old i've ever met. he's a champ with the ladies and i wish i was as talented and athletic as he is. he's going to go far in life.

as for my best friends... i could go on for days. i hope that they know how truly grateful i am for their undying friendship and support. i could ask these people for anything and i know they'd help me in a heartbeat. what gems they are. 

(abbi liddell, hailey fonda, mary dowden, mckel woodbury, kenzie bailey, dallin bristol)

so basically, i am the luckiest girl and surrounded by some of the greatest people that you will ever meet (if you get the chance to meet them.) today i am thankful for good company and i hope they know that i love them with all of my heart. 

i'm baaack

hello dears, i'm going to try this out again. one year older and hopefully wiser. i thought about trying to recap the past year and a half but i've done and learned way too much to possibly fit it on here. just know that it's been exciting with ups and downs! 

the main reason that i am trying this out again is because, as scary as it feels to me, i only have nine months left at home. i will be moving up to logan, utah and attending utah state university; major: undecided. although, i'm considering business or creative writing/english. hopefully i figure it out. as for now, i'm going to live every single day like i might not have tomorrow. 

i fall in love with life everyday, even if i don't necessarily appear that way. 

a quote by c.s. lewis that i came across the other day has got me thinking. 

"isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back everything is different."

this is quite true. i look back at my previous blog posts from when i was fifteen and i feel like i sound so silly and young, but i don't think i've changed all that much. i do hope i've grown up and matured more. so now, i'm seventeen and it's bittersweet. i don't want my life to change entirely but i'm SO excited to grow up and see a completely different part of life. 

have a lovely night. 

xoxo 

kylee jean