also, i need a new blog name! since i am no longer 17, and i haven't been for a minute, i'll have to figure that out (:
so tonight (last night/this morning?), i discovered my love/hate relationship for 3 word responses.
hate:
i don't care, it doesn't matter, you tell me, i don't know, this is boring,
love:
i love you, i miss(ed) you, let's do it, let's run away, i want you, i trust you,
specifically, "I don't care,"
i didn't realize how indecisive i am until i got pointed fingers at. i feel like i'm losing my creativity and i'm too lazy to become that again. i just want to be prepared with activities and ideas so i don't ever have to say "i don't care" again. Even though... i seriously don't care. i'm becoming more laid back and also more open to whatever comes my way. So, it's good and bad.
and "I love you."
love is.. strange. i love so many things and people, truly, i do. i have a hard time telling people that i love them. even my own parents! so, when those 3 words were spoken to me, the feeling was.. mmm. nearly enough to bring this girl to tears. i've just never felt something so strongly. literally my whole being, every fiber in my body was weak. these three words have been said to me before, obviously. like he said though, it was a love we chose, not something we were just given. i can't begin to explain how i feel or how it felt at the time but know that I'm happy.
it's amazing how 3 simple words can make or break a night. 3 words made me so irritated and then 3 different words turned into something that i will most likely never forget; a feeling that i hope never goes away and a feeling that happens often.
the best part? it wasn't something crazy. it just happened. a lot of this probably doesn't make sense if you're reading it... but it makes sense in my head and that's all i really need from this blog of mine. so there's that.
the coming post's will most likely make more sense, although i'm not making any promises (:
xoxo
kylee jean
